Escape.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath in.

The frigid winter air traveled down my esophagus and spilled into my lungs.

The blinding bright sun warmed the tear trails on my cheeks.

Yes.

This is it.

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I entered the noisy and bustling cafeteria.  My peers flocked to the lunch lines fighting to get their lunches first so they can get the good tables.

I took my time.

At least it will look like I am doing something.

My lab partner and her group of friends lined up behind me.

I smiled and let them in front of me.

As usual I was the last to get my lunch, but that’s ok.

Maybe I will get a seat at a full table.

Maybe I will look like I’m part of a group!

 

There were no seats at a full table.

 

I found a seat by the door of the cafeteria.

I looked around at the tables around me.

Everyone was laughing and talking and so festive!

 

I looked at my peas and my smiling potatoes.

The all too familiar feeling in my throat and my eyes came back again.

No.

I took a mouthful of peas.

Stop.

I took a gulp of milk.

Go away!

I chomped on the smiling potatoes.

RINNNNGGGGG!

The bell signaling the end of the lunch period rang.

Great!

———————————————————————————–

I pranced pass the school.

I walked across the street.

I skipped pass the church.

I walked up my porch.

 

Knock knock

 

I felt the cool autumn air pass through my burning throat and out my quivering mouth.

“I’m home!”

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I entered my room.

Logged onto Facebook.

Backed up my troops.

Checked the status of my alliance.

Ok.

I closed my light and let the darkness envelope me.

Bustle, gulp, ring, knock

Bustle, gulp, ring, knock

Bustle, gulp, ring, knock

Morning came.

—————————————————————————————

I entered the noisy and bustling cafeteria.  My peers flocked to the lunch lines fighting to get their lunches first so they can get the good tables.

I took my time.

At least it will look like I am doing something.

My gym partner and his group of friends lined up behind me.

I smiled and let them in front of me.

He said thanks.

As usual I was the last to get my lunch, but that’s ok.

 

Then I saw someone sitting by themselves.

I said “Hi!”

He said hey.

 

…

 

I looked around at the tables around me.

Everyone was laughing and talking and so festive!

 

I looked at my peas and my smiling potatoes.

The all too familiar burn in my throat and my eyes started up again.

No.

I took a mouthful of peas.

Stop.

I took a gulp of milk.

Go away!

I chomped on the smiling potatoes.

The bell signaling the end of the lunch period rang.

Great!

———————————————————————————————

I pranced pass the school.

I walked across the street.

I skipped pass the church.

I walked up my porch.

 

Knock knock

 

I felt the cool autumn air pass through my burning throat and out my quivering mouth.

“I’m home!”

————————————————————————————————–

I entered my room.

Logged onto Facebook.

Backed up my troops.

Checked the status of my alliance.

Ok.

I closed my light and let the darkness envelope me.

Bustle, gulp, ring, knock

Bustle, gulp, ring, knock

Bustle, gulp, ring, knock

Morning came.

———————————————————————————————————-

No bustle.

No gulp.

No ring.

No knock.

 

No burn.

Yes.

———————————————————————————————————-

 

I pranced pass the school.

I hopped across the street.

I skipped pass the church.

I jumped up my porch.

 

Knock knock

 

I felt the cool autumn air pass through my throat into my lungs and out my nose.

“I’m home!”

———————————————————————————————-

I entered my room.

I sat on my desk.

I found my scissors.

I felt no more burn.

I smiled.

This is it.

 

Ding!

“WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!”

Ding!

 I NEED YOU TO BACK ME UP!!

Ding!

MORE FORCES ON THE SOUTH SIDE OF THE CASTLE!”

Ding!

I NEED YOU!!!

——————————————————————————————

I closed my light and ….

Zzz…

Morning came.

——————————————————————————————-

I entered the noisy and bustling cafeteria and I saw my gym partner.

He motioned me over to the lunch line.

I got my lunch first!

I sat at a full table.

No Bustle, gulp, ring, knock

Just hustle, eat, sing, play!

hustle, eat, sing, play!

hustle, eat, sing, play!

—————————————————————————————

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath in.

The frigid winter air traveled down my esophagus and into spilled into my lungs.

The blinding bright sun warmed my cheeks.

Yes.

This is it.

 

 

 

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